is this here a cage?
yes, but the door is open.

и----i idvt oshte

I knew it. I'm not surprised, but I'm still crushed. I've never felt so miserable. He got his dream girl, finally. I;ve got some money to buy things that would make me feel a little less miserable. At least that. Although, with the pace I'm spending them, soon I wont be able to afford much.
Also, am I the biggest flop? Oh yes, yes I am. Twenty six, soon to turn twenty seven. A girl, a woman, lets just put "female". Has a few good paintings and extremely low self-esteem. Wastes time all the time. Has nothing to show for. Can't get up of bed, don't want to. Feels less acceptable each day, feels no satisfaction.  Stubborn. I hate this, I don't get it. Isn't he being the biggest phony? Is he completely clueless or just vile? This is so silly..can't believe my life resorted to this. Thoughts primarily going in one direction like into a black hole. Why is nothing important?

 Please, don't be like your crazy mother.

baby gonna love me

fuck myself in the head with stupid men\
the sad girl part:
любовта на живота ми
there goes my baby with someon new he sure looks happy I sure am blue

all the tired horses in the sun how am I supposed to get any riding done

When the beers came, he said, "Shall we find a table where we can discuss the state of the world and the meaning of life without being disturbed?" We took our glasses to a table. I was preparing an excuse to leave.

slunchice milo

must be another one he loves
come near me don't fear me we ve been here million times before
naah
Iaint done
сега просто продължавам