I knew it. I'm not surprised, but I'm still crushed. I've never felt so miserable. He got his dream girl, finally. I;ve got some money to buy things that would make me feel a little less miserable. At least that. Although, with the pace I'm spending them, soon I wont be able to afford much.
Also, am I the biggest flop? Oh yes, yes I am. Twenty six, soon to turn twenty seven. A girl, a woman, lets just put "female". Has a few good paintings and extremely low self-esteem. Wastes time all the time. Has nothing to show for. Can't get up of bed, don't want to. Feels less acceptable each day, feels no satisfaction. Stubborn. I hate this, I don't get it. Isn't he being the biggest phony? Is he completely clueless or just vile? This is so silly..can't believe my life resorted to this. Thoughts primarily going in one direction like into a black hole. Why is nothing important?
Please, don't be like your crazy mother.
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