is this here a cage?
yes, but the door is open.

и----i idvt oshte

I knew it. I'm not surprised, but I'm still crushed. I've never felt so miserable. He got his dream girl, finally. I;ve got some money to buy things that would make me feel a little less miserable. At least that. Although, with the pace I'm spending them, soon I wont be able to afford much.
Also, am I the biggest flop? Oh yes, yes I am. Twenty six, soon to turn twenty seven. A girl, a woman, lets just put "female". Has a few good paintings and extremely low self-esteem. Wastes time all the time. Has nothing to show for. Can't get up of bed, don't want to. Feels less acceptable each day, feels no satisfaction.  Stubborn. I hate this, I don't get it. Isn't he being the biggest phony? Is he completely clueless or just vile? This is so silly..can't believe my life resorted to this. Thoughts primarily going in one direction like into a black hole. Why is nothing important?

 Please, don't be like your crazy mother.

baby gonna love me

fuck myself in the head with stupid men\
the sad girl part:
любовта на живота ми
there goes my baby with someon new he sure looks happy I sure am blue

all the tired horses in the sun how am I supposed to get any riding done

When the beers came, he said, "Shall we find a table where we can discuss the state of the world and the meaning of life without being disturbed?" We took our glasses to a table. I was preparing an excuse to leave.

slunchice milo

must be another one he loves
come near me don't fear me we ve been here million times before
naah
Iaint done
сега просто продължавам

БЛАГОДАРЯ ВИ ЗА ТЪРПЕНИЕТО

ама нямаше нужда

само глупости от глупачки

played out

and amid it all, up came a bubble of distracted laughter
 in vicious circle futile fruitless
не схващам,

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• worn out

His veins were mostly gone, retreated back to the bone to escape the probing needle. For a while he used arteries, which are deeper than veins and harder to hit, and for this procedure he bought special long needles. He rotated from his arms and hands to the veins of his feet. A vein will come back in time. Even so, he had to shoot in the skin about half the time. But he only gave up and "skinned" a shot after an agonizing half-hour of probing and poking and cleaning out the needle, which would clot up with blood.

jokes on you actually,
cause now Im gonna have lots of free time, doing whatever I like.
and you, you are stuck with a girl again, he he. from one, right next to the other, you aint takin' no breaks
so, yeah.... the circle is closing in again
but not for me, I'm out for good. I hope. Who knows. I don't feel anything in particular, it's all a blur. I know it's a pointless maze, I can never win. I still get angry from time to time, occasionally break a glass, a plate, a finger

As this relaxing wave spread through my tissues, I experienced a strong feeling of fear. I had the feeling that some horrible image was just beyond the field of vision, moving, as I turned my head, so that I never quite saw it.

aide 4estito!

its official - he is insane
also, cruel

you are saved, I'm fucked
thanks a lot and good luck

you are not suffering at all
you are merely pretending

burn in hell, hell hell, hello           love

take a good look at my hands
they will be different tomorrow

love song

1.I don't like his name
2'. I don't find him sexualy attractive
3. I don't think he is intellectually challenging enough
4. I think he is kind of boring





0. He is perfect, but he ain't ma baby no more

malingerer

may be if I stand still for a while. I should wait and concentrate, focus.
work, don't get distracted. otherwise it is all a waste. pull it together
I got tomorrow coming
five minutes passed time to make a slight move to the right then may be a walk to the kitchen
amm,..what are you doing there? this is not your spot and you can't do that
say, you a pussy or somethin?
I stretch my back and I locate the position of the red head
now I see a red sock and a sad, confused person.
 She has some sort of boyish charm, she is clean and different. I like her sense of humor, her hair is nice and really black. this is beautiful and it should stay that way and I should just find someone like me - a desperate, lonely insomniac. I can't actually imagine being with her, the moment she sees the way I live my life, she will surely get as far away from me as possible.
I'm losing my mind here
its spilling I have white wine at home
what exactly is it

има ли значение

имате няма те има те нямате

thanks a lot

back to normal Ihate
hair of the dog that bit me